My Pregnancy Journey

This page is about my journey to be a mom. Keith and I have been through quite a whirlwind of emotions in trying to have our first child. I am documenting everything on this page both for my own sanity and to hopefully help others who are struggling as we are. Having a baby for some women isn’t easy. No one tells you that. No one talks about that. It can be a very isolating experience to struggle with something like this. Having a baby is supposed to be so natural and so normal…until it isn’t.

May 2011:  Keith and I decided to start trying but our first stop was for me to see an endocrinologist who specializes in fertility. I was not having monthly regular periods and after meeting with my regular doctor I was referred to her. I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism. I wrote a post about wanting to be a mom and being frustrated with my body and I also wrote a post explaining what hypothyroidism is.

August 2011: Keith and I found out we were pregnant! We were all so excited that we did not have to go through fertility treatments. Once we got my thyroid working correctly I started ovulating immediately and we got pregnant very quickly. We felt so blessed. I did not announce the pregnancy on the blog. I wanted to wait until I was further along to be safe.

October 2011: I had a miscarriage. We were blown away. I had an ultrasound at 7 weeks 5 days and we saw a very strong heartbeat. Everything looked completely normal. My next appointment was to be at 11 weeks. On October 23, 2011, the Sunday before my 11 week appointment, I started having strong cramps. Scared we went into the emergency room. A ultrasound showed that there was no heartbeat and the baby had stopped growing at 8 weeks 3 days. (5 days after that last appointment). I had to have a D&C because my body was not going to miscarry on its own. It is called a missed miscarriage. I did write a post about how I felt during those difficult days.

December 2011: The doctors told me that I needed to have two normal periods after the D&C before Keith and I could start trying again. I was terrified that I wasn’t going to start my period. I did end up having two normal periods and was given the greenlight to start trying again. I wrote explaining my feelings about getting my period for the first time after the D&C.

January 2012: I talked about how I dealt with being around pregnant friends.

February 2012: We found out we were pregnant again! I didn’t announce it on the blog (again) because we were extremely cautious because of our previous miscarriage.

April 2012: We miscarried again. We went in for our 10 week appointment and no fetal heartbeat was detected. It looked like the baby died at 9 weeks 1 day. I had to have another D&C. I did talk about my experience with my second miscarriage on the blog. I also wrote a post a few days after the D&C (April 6, 2012) about how I was coping with my loss.

May 2012: I did a Q&A for other people struggling with miscarriages and/or fertility. I also had a series of tests run for women who have had multiple miscarriages. I talked about specifically what tests I had run and announced that all my results came back normal.

June 2012: I wrote a post discussing my very angry feelings regarding what has happened to me and Keith. I truly believe I am going through a grieving process and while some days I feel sad, jealous or fearful; anger seems to be my primary emotion. It was helpful to lay it all out there.

July 2012: I wrote I’ll be happy when…talking about my belief that I was going to be okay and how I was finally accepting what was in the past and instead living in the now and looking to the future. I also thanked all my blog readers via a video message.

August 2012: I wrote how I balance my miscarriages with my belief in God and my Jewish faith.

January 2013: I wrote what it felt like to be entering in 2013 and still not be a mom.

January 2013: We started seeing a fertility specialist in Austin, Texas. For those of who you may need a recommendation in the ATX area, just email  me and I am more than happy to tell who we see and where they are located.

May 2013: I announced that we were 14 weeks pregnant! I also told the story of how it happened!