What Kelly Said

Well hello.

It’s been a while. I wish I had some fabulous stories to entertain you with. But really I don’t. Things are just going along over here. Day by day. I don’t think I am particularly happy at the moment but I am not miserable either. Just in a funk. You know? But it isn’t like I have been sitting around staring at the walls. Ha!

I’ve been super busy with this girl who fills me with immense joy

I’ve been eating fresh summer ingredients

I’ve made Keith  happy.

I’ve been a cheerleader

I’ve been wearing some of my favorite jewelry

And….that would be it. Ha!

How has your summer been so far?

So. I realize that my blogging habit has slowed to a crawl. I used to be so consistent. I used to look forward to it. But recently I just haven’t had the blogging mojo….reading or writing.

Why?

Basically I feel like most of the blogs I read are about fitness and food. There was a time when that interested me but it no longer does. I eat. I workout. But that’s about as obsessed as I am going to get these days. I have so many other things on my mind that what you eat or what you do at the gym really doesn’t matter to me. So I find myself not really even interested in reading a lot of the blogs I used to have to check daily. Meh.

Also, it seems like almost every week another blogger announces she is pregnant. Now don’t misunderstand, I am always always always happy for those people but as someone who so desperately wants to be a mom, and with my history, I don’t really want to subject myself to 9 months of pregnancy updates. Does that make me selfish? Callous? I’m not sure. I get that 99% of my readers don’t get what I am going through. I know that. They sympathize but they don’t empathize with me. And I don’t ever want them to. But 2 miscarriages later, I just don’t have it in me to read happy pregnancy posts.

As far as writing my blog. I am really not that interesting. I’m not! I go to work, I come home, eat dinner, walk the dog, go to bed. And then it starts all over the next day. I’m boring. So finding things to write about has been hard lately. I don’t always want to talk about my miscarriages, or pregnancy or the other 1000 not so positive things that run through my head on a daily basis. Keith and I have decided to not start trying again until October/November so all that means for us is lots of protected sex. Really…I’ve got nothing right now. Maybe once school is out I will have more time on my hands…more time to want to write and come up with witty things to say. But right now it feels like work and more work is not something I am willing to take on at the moment.

So. I guess I don’t know really know where this leaves me. I’m officially stuck. I don’t want to quit the blog but I just feel like I don’t have any where to go with reading blogs or writing blogs. I have 4 blogs that I check daily and probably always will (and those people know who they are because I comment) but other than that I just don’t have the desire.

Watcha think? Any advice??