2011 —-> 2012

I can not believe 2011 is over. Can’t.

This was a year for me. A YEAR.

I turned 30. Which was a really big deal for me. I had this irrational fear of turning thirty. I still sometimes look in the mirror and the wonder of it hits me. I’m thirty. I think the reason it was so hard for me was because I wasn’t exactly in the place I thought I would be when I turned thirty. But is any of us?

I also had a miscarriage in October. Not my finer days. I hope hope hope that 2012 is the year Keith and I can finally get pregnant and sustain the pregnancy. Even if our little baby doesn’t come until 2013….I hope 2012 is the year we have a healthy pregnancy. And really that is my sole wish for 2012. That is all I want. In Hawaii, Keith and I got leis and the man who gave them to use said that you should never put a lei on yourself. Instead he told me and Keith to both make a wish for each other and put the leis around the other person’s neck. We both had tears in our eyes because we both wished the same thing. It was a tender moment and one that I hope comes true for us.

I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism. I started taking medicine and I can happily report that as of last month we successfully had it under control. I see a fantastic endocrinologist whom I love. If you live in the Austin area and need a reccomendation…let me know!

I traveled to London! My mom took me for the said thirtieth birthday. It was amazing. I had a fabulous time and am convinced I could live there. I could go back tomorrow without any hesitation. I also love spending time with my mom. I am working on it but I am still aiming to be like her when I grow up. 🙂

Keith and I took a second honeymoon to Hawaii! We needed it. After having the miscarriage this was the trip that renewed both of us in mind, body and spirit. We came back a happier couple and ready to tackle 2012. I love Keith more than I could ever express and any time I try to put my emotions into words it sounds so inadequate. He is the most amazing man I have ever met and regardless of what happens being loved by him is what gives me peace. After 5 1/2 years of marriage I am still awed that he is my husband.

We put Kodi to sleep. One of the hardest things I think anyone ever has to do is put their animal to sleep. I know it was the right thing to do. After 16 years on this earth his poor body was worn out. But the love you receive from an animal is truly a blessing.

We got chickens! Keith is now an urban farmer. 🙂 We have 5 little chickens running around our backyard daily! Ruby, Lucy, Hazel, Sasha and Rosie. They have really made our life a lot more fun and we have fresh eggs every morning.

So that was 2011. It was a year. I am not going to classify it as good or bad. It just was. And as we move into 2012 and I can honestly say I am at peace with 2011 and am ready.

Happy New Year! May peace, love and joy find you.