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what i miss

May 17, 2011

First, I want to say thanks to everyone who commented yesterday, emailed me or sent me a FB message. It was all very encouraging and left with me a lot of hope. You guys rock!

Day 28 of the 30 day challenge is to talk about something I miss. This is a tough one because what I miss isn’t a thing. It is a time. It isn’t really any secret that I had a hard time turning 30. I won’t call it a mid-life crisis because I hope to live longer than the age of 60…but it wasn’t exactly my favorite birthday to date. It took me a while to figure out why 30 scared me so much. It represented things that I didn’t think I was ready for and it meant an end of an era. An era of childhood. An era that I miss.

I miss the fact that I will never be in high school again and go to prom, run in a track meet, scream at a pep rally, or sneak stolen kisses in-between class periods with my boyfriend. I miss the fact that I will never be in college again living in the dorm, discovering myself and tasting independence for the first time. I miss the fact that I will never be in my twenties again and experience my first adult job, my first date with Keith, our wedding and our honeymoon. I miss the times that have gone and gone too quickly.

I spent most of high school wanting to be in college and most of college ready to be in the real world. I always was wishing for the next stage. And now I find myself wishing to go back. What I wouldn’t give to go back and tell my younger self. I would tell her to stop and appreciate the here and now. Appreciate your youth, cherish your experiences, live in the moment and enjoy the financial freedom of relying on your parents. ha! I would tell myself that the future is always there but the past is always gone. So enjoy the moments. Stop thinking of when you’ll be happy and instead BE HAPPY right now with the moment.

13 Comments leave one →
  1. May 17, 2011 8:12 am

    Kelly – I am the same way. I spend so much time thinking about the past or dreaming of the future that I don’t look around and appreciate what I have now and live in the present! Thanks for the reminder.

  2. May 17, 2011 9:15 am

    You may never get to go back and do those things again, but there’s so much more coming. At least you know now to slow down and appreciate the moments. I’ve heard from a ton of people that their 30s are their favorite years.

  3. May 17, 2011 9:16 am

    LOVE this post Kelly! I totally agree with you on every point. Although I’m not 30 quite yet, I’m slowly creeping there and it’s starting to set in that my 20s are almost over. I literally found them ot be the best years of my life but I’ve also hear dfrom SO many people that their 30s were the best years of their lives. I can only say this…you live and learn. Perhaps you spent your 20s looking to the future but now you can spend your 30s living for eacha nd every day!

  4. May 17, 2011 9:20 am

    I would agree. Life goes by so fast, that you really need to savor each moment.

  5. May 17, 2011 10:16 am

    What a lovely message Kelly! I have to say I do have a hard time living in the moment and not wishing often to be at a different time – at this point fast forwarding to moving to a new city and starting a family. I know that soon I will be wishing that I can rewind also!

    As always, thanks so much for sharing. 🙂

  6. May 17, 2011 10:25 am

    Oh to be back under the parents’ financial wing. We had it good, didn’t we? 🙂

  7. May 17, 2011 11:26 am

    I couldn’t agree with you more! I always talk about high school and college! I had such an amazing experience with both that I would go back to either in a heartbeat! I always make a big deal about turning 30 (which will happen in a year and a half) and people don’t understand what the big deal is. For me, I am sad to be leaving my 20s I think it’s just an amazing time and, while I don’t know what my 30s will hold for me, I know that I love what the 20s represent. It’s hard to explain, but I wish I could stay in my 20s forever. Um…and I totally don’t mean to sound like Peter Pan! 😉

    • May 17, 2011 12:51 pm

      Turning 30 WAS a big deal for me. I was literally dreading my birthday…but honestly it aint so bad! ha! I realize it has only been a month but it has been a VERY good month!

  8. May 17, 2011 1:47 pm

    so so so true Kelly! It’s funny that we may be wanting to go forward in time and not appreciate something. And then, we look back and wish to go back to that place and time–except, all we should do is be grateful now because we’re never promised tomorrow. Live today to the fullest! have a blessed day and you are loved Kelly! ❤ But I am nervous about turning 30! haha well..I still got several years but still 😛

  9. May 17, 2011 2:16 pm

    Totally agree about making everything of the time you have. It’s so easy to waste it worrying about tomorrow

  10. May 17, 2011 4:54 pm

    I totally understand! As I’ve gotten older..and am soon about to experience a very ‘big girl’ moment of getting married- It is so exciting, but at the same time it makes you realize that you really are GROWING up. Kind of scary!

  11. May 19, 2011 6:12 am

    I’ve SO been feeling like this lately, especially since my sister just graduated from college. I miss those times and you can’t ever get them back! It’s so hard to not wish time away, especially when you are at a job you (and by you..I mean me) don’t enjoy anymore!

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