what i miss
First, I want to say thanks to everyone who commented yesterday, emailed me or sent me a FB message. It was all very encouraging and left with me a lot of hope. You guys rock!
Day 28 of the 30 day challenge is to talk about something I miss. This is a tough one because what I miss isn’t a thing. It is a time. It isn’t really any secret that I had a hard time turning 30. I won’t call it a mid-life crisis because I hope to live longer than the age of 60…but it wasn’t exactly my favorite birthday to date. It took me a while to figure out why 30 scared me so much. It represented things that I didn’t think I was ready for and it meant an end of an era. An era of childhood. An era that I miss.
I miss the fact that I will never be in high school again and go to prom, run in a track meet, scream at a pep rally, or sneak stolen kisses in-between class periods with my boyfriend. I miss the fact that I will never be in college again living in the dorm, discovering myself and tasting independence for the first time. I miss the fact that I will never be in my twenties again and experience my first adult job, my first date with Keith, our wedding and our honeymoon. I miss the times that have gone and gone too quickly.
I spent most of high school wanting to be in college and most of college ready to be in the real world. I always was wishing for the next stage. And now I find myself wishing to go back. What I wouldn’t give to go back and tell my younger self. I would tell her to stop and appreciate the here and now. Appreciate your youth, cherish your experiences, live in the moment and enjoy the financial freedom of relying on your parents. ha! I would tell myself that the future is always there but the past is always gone. So enjoy the moments. Stop thinking of when you’ll be happy and instead BE HAPPY right now with the moment.